Escape the Years

as a child I forged these chains that bind me
this cage that confines me
with my own broken heart

and my own fucking tears
to keep away the fears
that could break me apart

but day by day
I wish I could find another way
to escape the years

I felt this pain
without the gain
you should get from your peers

and only the alcohol in my glass
the poison in my flask
lets me forget

how to live
and to forgive
without regret

Flummoxed in Deep Blue

you tossed me aside as inadequate
as have done the rest
your heartless motives
I would like to address
must you say the things you say
that make me feel broken this way
and must you do the things you do
that leave me here a deep shade of blue
maybe I'm just flummoxed
but darling, can't you see

you took what I felt

you tore what I felt

you tore it away from me

you took my smile
put tears in my eyes
brought jealousy to my heart
and only then, did I whisper to myself
no more